Conflict In My Life-I'm Not a Your Shadow

yes, you've read the tittle right. what do i mean by that is when my life is based on someone else story. what do you feel when there's a boy whom you like for sometime but he just hang around you just to ask for your friend number? sucks right? he even tell me he really like my friend. i know i shouldn't put a high hope on him but i really like that guy that time. after that, I've grown apart from him, later my stupid feeling has already gone in few days.

my point is, it's hard to have a friend who is too popular for us. i've known that girl since elementary school, we're grow close in middle school. she move to my school in year 4, she have changed so much. back then, she was a shy girl, but now, speechless. how could she be like that. sometimes i don't know why i like to hang around her.

her popularity rise up when she become the assistant perfect in my school. from that, many people recognize her. she is a very unique chinese girl. instead using her own language and culture, she prefer to follow my culture, which attract the boy's attention. as you know, i wasn't as popular as her. i prefer to keep a distance from boys. but, one thing that make me angry is when they say i;m borrowing her popularity because i'm always besides her. that really pissed me off.

at some time, this issue get worse cause i can't take it. there is this one particular boy that set my anger to explode. his word are piercing to my heart. it's not like i want her popularity, it's not that i wan't anyone attention! i hang out with her because she was my best friend!

i hate being her shadow. sorry friend, this is the only thing i have a grudge on you. but we're still good. :) there's one thing i would like to add, please don't change anymore. and don't make me your shadow anymore! i want people to know me, myself, Nur  Anne Sudin!