yeah, i know. it's insane to have fallen for someone who already have someone else in their life. guess what? i don't care! even though i can't have him, at least let me be his friends, let me admire him from far.
this pathetic story begin in the university. the first time we talked to each other is when we went to HEP together by ourselves. back then we didn't talked to much, we have no feel for each other.
you know that i have no expertise in compute-ring filed. it became so hard to study by myself. my friend also had the same problem, so she suggested we asked you for help. so you and i always chat in the FB to solve the problem. that's when we got a bit closer. then suddenly out of nowhere you've got my phone number. i was surprised, and a bit flustered. why did you go all the trouble to secretly get my number. wouldn't it be easier just to ask me directly? that's when i know you're from a high prestigious school. you have to keep your image clean and cool. every time we get together to study, we always meet in secret. nobody has to know that we actually are close friend.
whenever i have problems, you always there to help me. whenever i need someone to accompanied me, you always offer yourself. but one night, out of the blue, i started walking aimlessly in the campus. i left my wallet and phone at the dorm. i came back late because...because i was lost! but thank to GOD i found my way back. later, i checked my phone and it is full of your message asking where did i go, what happen to me. then i replied i was a bit lost in the campus but i'm safe now. then you scolded me, what a fright. i never thought you'll care for me. since then, you forbid me go any where by myself. you insist to accompanied me whenever i go if i'm alone. that's when i truly fall for you.
everything you did for me i'll cherish it, i'll never forget it. i'm so grateful to have met you. i also labeled you as my hero. a wanted hero actually. and i was the little girl who always call for her hero.
at first, i just wanted to be friends with you. but as time goes by, my feeling towards you has grown. i know you already has someone. but i can't let this feeling go. i don't want to steal you from her, so i decided to admire you from afar. where i can't touch you. only see you make me feels happy.
but the pass few day, i decided i should keep a boundaries between us. in the past i always shares on what happen to me with you, but now i'll just keep it to myself. i want you to focus more on your beloved princess. i don't want her to get the wrong idea. i'm not gonna steal you from her. so you should just take good care of her more than you did with me.
as i avoid getting close to you, you seem almost to know what happen. you started questioning me whether i still believe in you or not. it's not that at all. i wanted to tell you, but i don't know how to explain. you may got the wrong idea or i may feel sad afterwards.
so we should just remain as BFF in the campus. you always been my wanted hero in my heart. THANK YOU SO MUCH. :)
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